I'm Back Yet Again

Back in September I wrote a post called "I Love Movies and Here's Why" and then I didn't write anything for months and months.  I took a hiatus from blog land and I don't even fully remember why.  I think it was mostly because I just generally felt like shit, struggling through a sales job which I hated and with no direction in life whatsoever.  But let's not get into that stuff here.  That's in the past and anyway it's not relevant to this post, as Zombie Baby has always been a platform from which I blogged about the nerdy shit that I was into, not about my personal life.

So I'm back to say that I want to stay with this place and to keep it going.  I know I already said that in a similar post again back in September, but I honestly am serious now.  Here's the thing: I wrote a lot when I was in school and writing grew to become something that was just a natural part of everyday life for me.  And now that I'm out of school I miss having the opportunity to write everyday because it feels like a part of my personal expression is gone.  This is stuff that, when I was around eighteen or nineteen, I never in a million years thought I would ever think.  I hated papers in school because they were on topics that were often arbitrary and frankly they just felt like a chore.  Now I'm not saying I miss writing papers, don't get me wrong, but I will say that I do miss the intellectual stimulation of college (which sounds fucking pretentious, but it's honestly true).  

I remember I discussed this topic with my friend El Lobo a month ago in Chicago when I visited him and he agreed with me.  It was a cool moment, not just because I felt validated, but also because it felt oddly "adult" to be discussing the topic of college as if it was a thing of the past (which it is).  

In some ways I feel sorry for those child prodigy oddballs who miss the stages of life that the rest of us go through (high school, college, the soul-crushing corporate world, etc).  But to be fair this is probably an extremely naive view of what it's like to be a super-talented prepubescent.  After all, their exceptional talent probably opens doors for them to opportunities and experiences that I can only dream of.  So at this point I'm going to shut up because I feel that I'm talking in circles, but you get what I'm getting at.